It is day 3 of the 3 day quote challenge that bekitschig has tasked me with! It’s been a fun challenge, that surprisingly revolved around similar topics!
Without further ado, quote 3:
I admit, when I imagine my life I see a solid middle class house, 4 bedrooms, 3 baths (one can be a half bath), garage, large backyard fenced in with a spacious patio. I see friends visiting often, CDubs growing up surrounded by playmates. I see cuddly husband wife interactions, pets to snuggle with and peace when returning home from an enjoyable job.
I have absolutely none of that. None.
Fighting all the time, isolated, barely any children his age, job so stressful I’ve had a tension headache for more than a week (I can’t get through the day without prescription IBProfin), too many folks need me but don’t actually want me, cats neglected….
It’s a mess. I am profoundly unhappy.
But. But. My son is beautiful. Though the man I married seems hidden from view, he’s still in there. I don’t have to work here forever. Nothing has to stay the same.
I imagine taking that step. It’s scary. I have a job now, my co-workers are nice. It’s not so bad…
I’ve become comfortable in unhappiness. This is all life is. It’s sucks.
I’ve started to stop, and take care. It’s time to grab at that life we imagine. It’s scary; we can’t afford to move. We can’t afford for just one person to work. We can’t, we can’t, we can’t….
It’s time. It is time. Now (well in the morning). This must change.
So yes, she is going to live the life she imagined. Yes.