Is it true? If you are happy are you more productive? I think this is very true.
I admit I said at first, I can produce many things while I am unhappy! The question is, am I producing quality work or par, sub par work? If I am honest with myself, my work, it’s par. I am capable of awesomeness because I’ve seen myself produce lessons that are so engaging the kids don’t want to leave.
Then there are times I let it all get to me and… Yeah.
Same goes for home. Bringing the bad home, letting the negativity of our lives take hold… Then at home I produced… Not much.
I stopped taking care of me. I stopped producing quality meals to eat, I stopped being a open honest me with my husband. Lots of avoidance, lots of ignoring things. Just focus on CDubs. Except even there, I wasn’t reading to him as much, I wasn’t rolling around with him as much, I handed him to Ryan a lot sooner than I think I should have.
Not producing quality relationships, I was unhappy. I am unhappy. I’ve been unhappy.
So something has to give. Then I saw Tiny Houses. I can maybe afford that. Maybe I can have a house. Maybe we can afford to pay bills.
A light, suddenly I was happier. At work I realized some things. I ordered cool music, I got back on track.
I did my clothes. I am cleaning up downstairs.
Connor and I are playing together everyday for hours.
I am painting my nails, working on make up, wearing good clothes…
I am producing better things now. I am productive and it feels good.
All from this idea, maybe we can get out and change.
I’m alive again.